**Sigh**

Have you ever felt sad and didn't really clearly understand why? Today I had a moment on the way to the mall with my dad where I wanted to do was weep. I have been through a lot this past two weeks and since college off and on...news that shook my world and would potentially impact the rest of my life and a lot of time doing a whole lot of nothing to let it merry-go round in my cerebreal cortex. I feel like I'm living a convaluted dream  and hoping and praying that I wake up. Then I realize that this frustration/confusion is my present-day reality. Even as I type this I can feel the heat throb behind my eyes waiting to gush forth. I have so many questions and it seems like the few answers that I have gotten haven't seemed to solve anything but bring added confusion! I really want to go somewhere and scream to the top of my lungs 3 times and be silent for a long time...in a cave...alone. I sorry but its just one of those days, within this season of my life that I wish would stop haunting me! God I need your help directly from you!